This blog is my outlet to release the thoughts that take place on my journey to get my body, mind and soul healthy. I had an interest in metaphysics, although I wasn’t aware of the name at the time, ever since I can remember. I’ve had a fascination with psychics and paranormal phenomena since my twenties.
I’ve always had a strong spiritual and faith base, but not until my early forties did I have this sudden inner desire to find my purpose in life. I struggled to find what my passion was or what excited me. Shortly thereafter, I began writing. Have no clue where it came from, but nonetheless, I wrote a love story. Then went on to a writing course and began my paranormal mystery series. It was there where I discovered my deep interest in my research on psychics.
I also went through a major change in 2010 with a hysterectomy. I fell into a deep dark place of depression struggling with the hormonal changes and fighting the need to take hormone drugs. But, understanding that I needed something to function every day, I gave in and it did bring me back to normalcy…for a few years anyway.
I had also learned about my inner health from a great wellness doctor in PA. Unfortunately, at the time of going through my bodily changes, I didn’t have the money to pay for the needed visits. It’s not covered by insurance. So seven years later, I’m needing to wean off my hormones and my entire body is in a complete state of chaotic influx.
During the weaning off process, I discovered meditation. Wow, what a game changer. It helped me change my thoughts and learn to look within. But, I still struggled with…what is my soul’s purpose. What is my destiny? There’s got to be more out of life than what I’ve been doing for the past 35 years.
Then, last November I weaned of yet another hormone pill, and well from there my body just began to react in ways that made it difficult to feel good getting up and going to work every day. I got an upper respiratory infection, went on antibiotics, yeah that was a lot of fun, and then I couldn’t get rid of the post nasal drip, constant mucus build-up and incessant clearing of my throat. Not to mention the feeling of a ball stuck in my throat.
On further personal research, I narrowed it down to silent reflux. I began to try all the many suggested remedies to help, but that threw me into more issues.
But in December, I finally made the decision, after talking about it for a year, to learn to do yoga. Wow, now this changed my life. I found a great lady on Youtube, Yoga with Adriene, and I never looked back. I get to the mat every single day. Haven’t missed a day since. This gave me hope…
Then, on top of all this, I still struggled with the idea of what I wanted to be when I grew up and had an inner voice tell me to learn about metaphysics. It encompasses everything I’ve been learning and discovering over the last ten years. So I did. I applied to an online course in metaphysics and hope to learn what it is that’s my calling.
Finally last Monday with continued issues, I said that’s it, I need to go see Ella, my wellness doctor. Since my hubby and I have sold our house, our finances have eased and paying out the money for a visit wasn’t such a hardship. Although it’s still crazy expensive. It sure would be nice to have medical coverage for this type of wellness.
I learned that yes, my body is a mess, but not in the sense that it can’t be fixed and healed. It’s a slow process and I’ll tackle it just like I’ve tackled everything else in my life, because I DO believe I should feel fantastic every day. No matter what age.
So this, this is my journal entry to begin my path to discovery of the new me. To learn what it is that puts the fire in my belly. I want to help others, I do know that. In what capacity, I’m not sure, but I’ll figure it out.
And so it is…